Some days, i feel happy, and other days i feel completely lost. I miss the bubbly innocent version of myself who could enjoy little things without overthinking everything. This breakup has changed me in ways I never expected. I don’t understand why I struggle to feel genuinely happy why crowded places make me anxious or why I sometimes feel like I’ll never heal from this. Is it normal to feel this way after a painful breakup.
Today is 38th day of no contact

I can get that, my last one left me in a similar situation. It might not feel like it, but those friends may appreciate you reaching out. It’s worth a shot. If not, there are always new people in the world, and you can chalk this up to a learning experience.
I did try reaching out, but they kept ignoring my messages. Eventually they just told me to take care of myself and now i see them posting about their happy life. I guess i have to accept that they’ve moved on even though it hurts.