Not in a patriarchal way of wanting more rights, but wanting to be them. When I see men who dress and act like old-timey gentlemen or see feminine men, I want to be like them.
When I picture my ideal self, I picture a taller, more scrawny-looking guy who’s into alternative fashion.
Aside of the height thing (maybe?), most of that you can do now as-is, without expensive medical therapy.
And I say that based on what you posted. Obviously there may be more to it, and if there is that’s fine.
As with anything, start small and with the things you can do now; i.e. clothing and hairstyles. Work your way up.
From my own personal experience, starting small helps to build confidence when tackling the more complicated stuff. Plus you get the satisfaction of checking things off your list (if you’re into that sort of thing).
Anyway, you deserve everything you want, and I wish you the best of luck in your journey!