I don’t know if it’s related to autism, but I can’t listen to music just like if it was a white noise like most people do, if I play something I get very emotional about it, my mind changes completely and when I stop listening I kind of feel bad and depressed. I wonder if it’s related to autism or some kind of over-stimulation or something. I feel like any music I listen to touches my soul. And that’s not good because sometimes I just want to chill but I get way too attached to the playing song.
So I’m barely listening to music lately because I’m trying to keep my emotional neutral.
I often have a tune in my head (in a good way, not like having baby shark stuck in your head), and the only relief is figuring out the words that go with the tune. So, these are songs I already know, and I’ll listen to that song and songs by the same group, and read the lyrics on genius.com. I’ll listen to more songs by that one group for weeks (sometimes months), and don’t always read the lyrics, just listening or listening while doing something else enjoyable.