I don’t know if it’s related to autism, but I can’t listen to music just like if it was a white noise like most people do, if I play something I get very emotional about it, my mind changes completely and when I stop listening I kind of feel bad and depressed. I wonder if it’s related to autism or some kind of over-stimulation or something. I feel like any music I listen to touches my soul. And that’s not good because sometimes I just want to chill but I get way too attached to the playing song.
So I’m barely listening to music lately because I’m trying to keep my emotional neutral.
Yeah, I sometimes commit myself to listening before realizing I’m not in the best place for it. Some things I just can’t listen to at all because it takes me to shitty places.
Why are you trying to not feel anything?
I get way too much emotionally attached to the song and I can’t get things done properly, can’t focus in other things. I prefer to stay neutral, I feel like being on that emotional state can affect my judgement on making rational decisions.
For what it’s worth, there’s no such thing as rational/emotionless decisions. It’s better to be aware of yourself and your own biases than it is to try and cut your emotions off.
Which is very different from being overstimulated / emotional. I personally keep movies/tv to a minimum because of how much it affects me, not to mention the ones that are completely unwatchable because of how much they press my buttons.
I think it’s okay to lower the amount of music you listen to, especially if it becomes too much. Gotta take care of yourself for sure.